I have been experiencing a lot of emotions and situations recently that I believe are part of my spiritual lesson in life. It has been a while since I wrote a post directly relating to this subject, but every day I embrace my spiritual journey on earth. I recently experienced shock and worry when a close family member was involved in a serious road accident almost four months ago. I now experience weekly anxiety, sadness and hope as we visit him in a specialist hospital facility where he is slowly recovering.
My children continue to amaze, impress, and teach me the true value of human life. For a long time I have been preoccupied with the need to ‘be something,’ to make a success of my life, and to become somebody of worth. Unfortunately I confused this ideal with financial wealth, and I fell into the trap of valuing money above all else on my quest. Of course, it didn’t work out quite the way I expected, and that is as it should be. That is not my journey in this life.
No, my journey is one of appreciation and love. My children love me unconditionally. They have no concept of jobs, money, material goods, or any of those human creations that we all crave. My children simply want to play, they want to have fun, and they want to do these things with Mummy and Daddy. We are still persuading Daddy to take some time off work, but that is his journey and I cannot interfere (unless he asks, of course!)
Just last week I finally realized that I feel at peace after living in a state of wild upheaval for over a year. My spiritual journey took huge leaps back in 2012, and then in 2013 I feel that I strayed a little. I became overwhelmed by an exhausting pregnancy, and I succumbed to the strains of domestic life while still trying frantically to develop my business. Now, I feel that I can let go of those things that are no longer important. I am working from home, and I am raising a family. I am also taking time to rest, to have fun, and to indulge in things that make me happy. And, that for now, is success.
Have a wonderful summer my friends! Oh, and if I seem a little quiet during July, here is the reason: http://catherinegreenauthor.blogspot.co.uk/2014/06/preparing-for-camp-nanowrimo-amwriting.html
Good for you. The publishing business drains everything out of you AND you are never finished. There’s always another site to check out, always another promo to try, always another breakthrough if you just cling on and keep believing. The you part of you gets heavy but the machine keeps going. I’ve always thought that writing is for the long dark days – and we have enough of them. Feel the sun on your skin and join me in contemplating the nature of time and the illusion that there is such a thing as the self.
Thank you Emma, you are absolutely right. I can always find one more website that I simply must sign up to in order to sell my books. But I choose not to. Right now I choose my children, my family and my friends. Have a beautiful day, and thanks for commenting!