Hello and welcome, 2021! Today marks the beginning of a new working year for many people, while others will have worked all through the Christmas holidays, not least our teachers here in the UK.
We may face the beginning of another nationwide lockdown, although our government is resisting for now. All schools in London are closed, along with many more in the South of England, some parts of the North, in Wales, Scotland and Northern Ireland. Our local secondary schools are closed, and students will study from home for a few weeks. Primary schools were instructed to stay open, however. I have sent my children to school with mild anxiety. They need to be in school with their friends. But since we are now in Tier 4 in Cheshire, I wonder if it should be open when everything else is closed apart from what is deemed essential?
Last week I took pleasure in taking down our Christmas decorations and cleaning the house, at least downstairs. It is a symbolic ritual for me, cleaning out the old to make way for the new, and I did it on New Year’s Eve, leaving only the lights up for one final night. My home feels refreshed and cosy, and it makes for a nice working space as we move on into a new year but still with the old challenges. I used my Californian White Sage smudge stick to cleanse the air in the house, I opened windows to allow in fresh air, and I lit candles in a symbolic ritual of cleansing and healing.
My chronic pain condition kept me busy throughout Christmas. One day I would be fine, the next I could barely open my eyes. This I fear will be an enduring issue throughout 2021, as I battle the NHS gatekeepers and try to seek an audience with the doctor I requested to see when I transferred from Manchester Royal Eye Hospital to Mid Cheshire Hospitals. I knew that Manchester would not be calling me back for a routine check-up due to Covid-19, and I knew that I would need help from the doctors at some point. Unfortunately, I saw a doctor in December who totally dismissed my concerns, refused to engage with me as I tried to explain about my rare genetic disease, and now I prepare to battle the authorities once more. Wish me luck!
The events of the past twelve months have been very revealing in my life. They uncovered behavioural patterns in people I was close to that I found quite unpleasant. I think it was partly due to my Reiki healing journey, but at some point, last year I woke up. I saw these people for what they were, and I didn’t like what I saw. So, I stepped away. And while I cannot remove them from my life completely, nor do I want to, I am focusing on me and what I want, rather than what they would like me to do to make their lives easier.
As we face the prospect of another lockdown, I am fed-up that I won’t be allowed to practice my hands-on healing Reiki business for the foreseeable future. That doesn’t mean I will sit idle, however. There are lots of people who need help from a distance, and I can do this with the power of distance energy healing. I will gracefully accept the restrictions placed upon me by government and find ways to work around it. I cannot change the decisions that have been made, but I can make peace with them.
Chronic Voice Link-Up
I joined the social network for A Chronic Voice because I needed to find people who understand what life is like with chronic illness, people like me. Today I have written a post using the January link-up prompts, to show my experience of living with a chronic pain disorder. Click here to find other blog posts from fellow chronic pain sufferers, or #spoonies as we call ourselves online.
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