The Awesome Power of a Compliment

Recently I have been experiencing a turbulence of emotions and mood swings, as I navigate the crazy world of parenting in a culture that doesn’t appreciate the true work of the mother. You will know all of this if you have been reading my other blog posts. While I was struggling to regain control and strike up a balance between mothering, being a supportive wife, and being an active writer, my mood began to dip. I began to doubt whether I really should pursue this crazy career as an author. I mean, come on, what is the likelihood, really, of me reaching the top of the international bestseller lists, and all of the glamour and sparkle that will surely follow?

I know the odds are incredibly slim. I have no big contacts in the industry. I live in a small, rural town in the North of England. I have not been writing for very long in the grand scheme of things. And all of these thoughts were weighing heavily on my mind as I tried to make sense of my life a few weeks ago. Perhaps it is the sensitivity that comes with being a creative person. Perhaps it was the effects of lack of sleep courtesy of my eighteen month-old daughter. Maybe it was just the sheer helpless feeling that I am all alone, trying desperately to sell my books to people who might not even want to read them. I don’t know.

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Anyway, as I began to slide, my guardian angels sent a little support. I believe in higher entities. I believe in angels, ghosts, spirits, fairies, every mythical creature. They are all beautiful, and magical, and they exist because we make them real. We give them life in our stories, and we channel their power. And my angels saw me struggling. They led me into contact with industry professionals as a result of my own hard work in building contacts and making new friends. And I received a compliment from a lady that brought a smile to my lips and lifted my heart. Somebody recognised the hard work I had been putting in to build my author platform and stay present on the social networks. Hooray! The conversation has ended now. But it may have been the trigger for a whole new adventure in my life. Time will tell…

You are all wonderful, my friends! I thank you for sharing this journey with me. Love and light, and happy days.

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Getting Out There, with People

Good morning, my friends! Or, good afternoon, or good evening, depending on what time of day you read this blog. I thank you for coming along, and for taking the time to see what I have to say. I feel that perhaps my messages of late have come across as slightly aggressive, or maybe I have been complaining a lot. I won’t apologise. This is my blog, my story, my space to vent. It is important. It is cathartic. And perhaps, somewhere, you will understand my ranting and raving, and maybe even sympathise or gain support from my words. I hope so. We all need to help each other where we can.

Anyway, back to the subject. I feel like a magpie today. Ooh, look, something shiny! Sorry, must focus. Today I am feeling positive. Life is good. Life is full of promise and adventure. I am still immersed in the consuming world of motherhood and being a housewife, but I am now allowing myself to step outside of that particular box, and just be me. I took some time away from my children at the weekend, and I feel so much better for it. I stopped worrying about the state of my house. We are a busy family. We make mess. We survive. It will all get sorted in time.

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Right now, I have other priorities to attend to. I need to be known. People need to read my novels, to enjoy them and to share them with others. My supernatural world is bursting to be revealed, after years of secrecy, hidden beneath the cliffs of a beautiful, seaside town in Cornwall. The wolves are hungry. The vampires are bored. The witches are discovering their powers after years of living lives as ‘normal’ humans. Have you met Jessica Stone and the Mason brothers yet? Well, maybe I should introduce you…

Love Hurts - Love, Vampires and Werewolves Writer Catherine Green Book Cover - Love Kills - A Redcliffe Novel Catherine Green Book - Love Redeems - A Redcliffe Novel

Part of my difficulty in being recognised for my books, is that I do not presently have the means with which to advertise sufficiently, and in the right places, to get my name known. I have so far been unsuccessful in securing an agent that might help me to realise this dream (but I am still working on it), and I have had to give up a lot of my time to focus on my family for various reasons. That is all beginning to settle down now, and so I have made a decision. I need to Get Out There. You know, with actual real people. I mean, like talking to people and stuff. That is a scary concept for a writer.

Put me behind my computer and I can reel off pages of prose. I can chat away in social media forums, eloquent and interesting (I hope). But put me in a room with a group of people I don’t know, and I become the shy, quiet, polite girl in the back. I am not a stranger to public speaking. I used to work in a busy theme park, entertaining families with young children. I danced on a stage with Barney the Dinosaur, for goodness’ sake, in front of 500 people, three times a day! But for some reason, when it comes to my precious books, I freeze up. I cannot articulate the beauty and passion of my novels. I worry that people think I am being big-headed, or that they don’t want to hear it. Well of course they don’t, because I don’t share! I know what I need to do. And it will take a lot of guts to do it. But, my work deserves to be seen and appreciated. Here I go…

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I am grateful, now fuck off.

spookymrsgreen:

A friend shared this with me, and wow, angels I thank you for your intervention /support! I’m not a bad mother if I complain. And I am not alone. That is a wonderful feeling… Well, until the baby wakes up again!

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It was some time between midnight and 3am. I was dead asleep. I’d fed the littliest at midnight so it was after that, and it was before he woke up for a feed at 3am. This hardly matters, because that time of night is Hell unless you’re pashing, happy drunk, smoking in a bar, dancing, or on drugs – y’know, generally having a fulfilling life that doesn’t involve milk dripping out of your breasts or playing the fart or shit game. So, I’m asleep and I feel this tiny hand on my face and then there’s a kiss on my forehead. And for a second I’m confused like – did the tiny one do that? He’s only four-weeks-old? Is he a mutant? That would be amazing. And then I realise it’s my big baby and I pull him into my arms while still asleep and think “oh he’s delicious”. But…

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This Mummy needs some Self Care

It is becoming increasingly apparent that I desperately need some me-time. Fellow parents, you will understand. I have been doing the ‘stay-at-home-mother’ thing for four years now, and I am finally cracking under the strain. There is only so long that you can go through life with a forced smile painted on your face, while your shoulders ache and your mind whirls with the stress of being a responsible, nurturing adult.

I need some self care. I need to take a lesson from the mothers of the generations above me. Many of them sacrificed their careers, their independence, and their physical and emotional health, in order to raise children. Many of my friends and peers are in the same situation as me. We all need to recognise when we need a break. It doesn’t make us weak. It doesn’t make us selfish. The last thing our children need, is to take the brunt of our anger when we lash out in sheer desperation after one more tantrum or spillage in the house.

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I am determined not to become the screaming tyrant that lurks just beneath the surface of my calm exterior. It is, if you like, the Mr Hyde to my Doctor Jekyll. Split personality, hidden demons, call it what you will. It is real, and it can be very destructive if not properly dealt with. I cannot contain this crazy person inside of me. I don’t want to. I want to be happy and balanced. I want to feel at peace with my life choices, and know that I am giving my family everything that they need, and receiving it in return.

Of course, self care is an easy thing to preach about. When do we actually do it? I mean, my husband works long hours for five or six days every week. On his days off, we visit the family and take care of whatever jobs have cropped up. We share a car. Our families are busy. It is very difficult to schedule in the me-time. But, there is a way. And I will find it. I will! In the meantime, I will channel the rage through my writing…

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Meet Catherine Green

spookymrsgreen:

This interview comes at a crucial time for me. Recently I have been overwhelmed with the weight of domestic responsibility, while at the same time desperate to break out and embrace my career as an author. Thank you for sharing my journey…

Originally posted on WordMothers:

Interview by Nicole Melanson ~

Interview with writer Catherine Green by Nicole Melanson

Author of adult paranormal romance series The Redcliffe Novels, Catherine Green was raised on books from a young age, and has happy memories of Saturday mornings spent in her small local library devouring the contents of the shelves. Her published novels include Love Hurts (A Redcliffe Novel), Love Kills (A Redcliffe Novel), Love Redeems (A Redcliffe Novel), The Darkness of Love, and the Kindle short story “Christmas with the Vampires”. Catherine also has short stories published in YA anthologies Devils, Demons and Werewolves and The Mirador Fantasmagoria.

Catherine has always been fascinated by the supernatural world, and it feels natural for her to write about vampires, werewolves, witches and other mystical creatures in her stories. She is a mother of two (plus dog), with an interest in crafts and social history. Catherine practises Law of Attraction and truly believes that everyone can…

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These Kids are Driving me Crazy… But I Still Love Them

My world is totally chaotic at the moment. It is also very small. Being a creative person, and one who resists the chore of the daily grind, I find myself in a very difficult place. The writer in me wants to hide away behind my computer and create the masterpieces that reside in my mind. The hippy in me wants to acquire a camper van and head off on a fun-filled road trip around the UK, visiting sites of sacred and historical interest, and communing with Nature. And the mother in me wants to clean our house, provide for our children, and be Supermum.

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Needless to say, Supermum is but a distant dream at the moment, but Stressedmum is here to stay. While my husband works long hours to bring home a household wage, I am left to deal with the kids. And they are driving me crazy. It’s not their fault. They are only children. That is becoming a mantra all on its own these days. My daughters are cheerful, cheeky, hyperactive, loving, irritable, inquisitive, and generally the most gorgeous creatures on this planet. Along with our dog, their ‘big brother.’ All three are exhausting to live with. But I chose to have them. And I wouldn’t have it any other way.

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So, please bear with me while I rant and rave over here on the blog. It is my vice in a world populated by little people and plastic toys. And Peppa Pig. And Jake and the Neverland Pirates. Oh, the horror! And now I must be going. There is a sticky mess that must be cleaned, a pile of cloth nappies to contend with, and the ever present dilemma over cooking and mealtimes… perhaps one day my daughters will eat something healthy!

*Stressed Mommy image via Pinterest; My darling children from personal archive

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Hello, Sunshine!

Well, hello my friends, and what a long week it has been! Sorry for my absence over here. My elder daughter has returned to preschool today after the half-term holiday, and while we spent most of the week at home, I have no idea what we actually did. It is something of a mystery. I mean, we had a few dramas with a faulty boiler, shower replacement, general household repairs, but I lost the week completely! Oh well, I am here now, and happy Monday to you all. Have a lovely week…

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