This week, I’m celebrating what should be a joyous milestone—my fifteenth wedding anniversary. But instead of roses and celebrations, I’m reflecting on a love story that’s taken a turn. After twenty-five years together, the marriage that once felt unbreakable has been overshadowed by the harsh reality of life, love, and growth.

As I navigate this painful chapter, I’ve been asking myself some tough questions. What does love truly mean? How do we continue to evolve as individuals while still honouring the bonds we’ve built? And, most importantly, how do we reclaim our power when everything we once believed about love starts to unravel?

This Witchy Wednesday, I want to share my personal journey—a raw, real look at what happens when love fades, and self-love must take its place. Through it all, I’m finding strength, and magic, and learning how to lead by example for my daughters.

A Love Lost, A Strength Found

This week, I find myself reflecting on a milestone that should be filled with joy. It’s my fifteenth wedding anniversary with Daniel—my husband, my partner, my teenage sweetheart. Together, we’ve shared twenty-five years, and yet, the occasion feels bittersweet. It’s a day that marks love and loss all at once.

The truth is, our marriage is broken. There are no grand celebrations planned, no romantic dinner or surprise getaway. The love we once had has been overshadowed by life’s cruel twists—career demands, the invisible weight of my husband’s autism, and the shifting priorities that have slowly pulled us apart. His job takes precedence over everything, and I find myself no longer willing to wait for the affection and attention I need. In this space, I’ve had to face some hard truths about my own needs, desires, and future.

As a mother of two teenage girls, I know my role has evolved. I want to be a strong, empowered female role model for them—someone who stands up for herself and knows when to let go. Love is not about sacrifice at the expense of your own happiness, and it’s important they see that lesson. Even though this chapter feels painful, I am learning to put myself first. I am reclaiming my power and focusing on my career and passions.

This journey has not been easy

But let me not fool you—this journey has not been easy. There’s been heartache, frustration, and a lot of quiet nights where the questions seemed endless. Yet, there’s also been growth, strength, and clarity. Through it all, I’ve found solace in the magic I carry inside me—our ancestors’ wisdom, the strength of the moon, and the power of self-love.

So, to anyone reading this who may find themselves in a similar place, I want to offer a little magic, a reminder that you can choose to love yourself fiercely, no matter the circumstances. Below is a simple love spell for those moments when you need to reconnect with your heart and summon some self-love into your life.

A Self-Love Spell for New Beginnings

What you’ll need:

• A pink candle (representing love)
• A small rose quartz crystal (for self-love and healing)
• Lavender (for calm and peace)
• A small piece of paper and pen
• Begin by lighting the pink candle and placing the rose quartz crystal in front of it.
• Close your eyes, take a deep breath, and focus on the love within you. Reflect on the things you love about yourself—your strength, your resilience, your beauty, inside and out.
• On the piece of paper, write down any thoughts or feelings that may be holding you back from loving yourself fully. This could be fear, doubt, or unresolved pain.
• Sprinkle a little lavender over the paper as you say the following words:

“With love, I release the past,
I open my heart to love that will last.
From within, I reclaim my light,
May I walk in love both day and night.”

• Fold the paper and hold it in your hands, feeling the energy of self-love fill you. Let the candle burn until you feel ready to extinguish it, knowing that you are deserving of all the love you seek.

Learn to let go

As we move through life, we learn to let go of the things that no longer serve us. This may mean walking away from something that once was beautiful but has become broken. And in the space of letting go, there is room for new beginnings—new love, new purpose, and above all, a deeper connection to our own magic.

May you find peace in your journey, just as I am finding mine.

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