This might seem a strange thing to say on the blog site for a writer. Yet it has been very difficult for me to embrace my new status after yearning for it all my life. I still feel a bit of a fraud when I tell strangers that I am a writer, despite the fact that I have published stories, a novel in development, and I write articles for a web magazine.
Why is it so difficult to confess? I always seem to justify myself to people, and I don’t know why. Well I do know, it is down to my upbringing and the peers of my society. That’s not to say I blame people specifically. It is just a fact that I have been raised with the belief that to be a success I must work for a ‘big corporation’ and have a job with a fancy title and a large salary. But these things eluded me for years and I felt a bit of a failure to be honest.
So I decided to finally dust off my computer, stop mucking about on the internet, and actually do some writing. And do you know what? It actually worked! I feel so empowered now, and so excited about all of the positive changes happening around me, and the writer in me just wants to ignore my practical responsibilities, and just write.
It hasn’t been an easy journey and I am still battling the voices of negativity inside my head and in some people around me. But now I am finally starting to feel my career, and it feels fantastic!